Packing panic

Anything for a distraction while packing, am I right?

I don’t know why packing always makes me so nervous.  I’m actually already done but keep finding myself fidgeting things between bags to make it -just- right.  I’m also tempted to go out and buy some Tylenol and snacks…because I’m headed to Canada for a metal festival.  But first there’s the drag show tonight!  Hooray!

How sad is it that my hubs and I decided to go to this festival because Beast in Black are going to be there?  They’re nowhere near one of the headliners…but they’re the reason we’re going nevertheless.  This is their first show in North America and, so far, the only one planned.  Wouldn’t miss it!

…so to try to distract me before I unpack and repack everything…

This popped up on my Facebook timeline — one of hub’s friends tagged me in this a decade ago today.  Some weird obsessions never die.  😀

1. What time did you get up this morning?

I don’t think “this morning” is the right word for it.  I’ve been shifting my sleep schedule the past few days so I can handle this weekend.  I woke up at 12:30 p.m.   Crazy, right?  The drag show doesn’t start until 8 tonight and then I get to drive the 3.5 hours to Montreal right after…so considering I’m going to be driving until probably 4 a.m., I think half-past noon isn’t too unreasonable.

2. How do you like your steak?
Medium well for the most part.  I can handle filet at medium…but everything else, medium well.

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Ahh, crap.  I have to think really hard on this one because I just don’t go to the cinema a lot.  I think it was Avengers: Endgame with hub’s parents.

4. What is your favorite TV show?
Star Trek, the original series.   I also like The Next Generation…but it’ll always be Star Trek.

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
Currently, Scotland.  I really loved it there and it felt homey.

6. What did you have for breakfast?

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
All of it?  Seriously, as long as it’s well prepared, I don’t have a favorite.  At home, I mostly cook southern U.S. style because it’s what I was raised on.  If we go out, we almost always pick some sort of Asian place…but we also cook a lot of that at home.

8. What foods do you dislike?
Peas and green beans and raw tomatoes.  I also don’t like processed seaweed.  It could be because my mouth breaks out in blisters if I eat them, but I also just don’t like them. 😛

9. Favorite Place to Eat?
There’s a really fantastic Brasilian steakhouse not too far from here.  It’s endless meat — what could possibly be wrong about that?!

10. Favorite dressing?
I tend to like Italian, the non-creamy variety.

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
Toyota Prius AWD

12. What are your favorite clothes?
Apparently black.  Hubs was helping me get stuff together to pack and I asked for a shirt that wasn’t black.  “You mean this ONE shirt?”  Yup, that one.  It has unicorns on it, so I’ll let it pass for not being black.

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
I’d like to hit up Iceland next.

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?

Half empty.  I’m a professional pessimist.  It works out well for me.

15. Where would you want to retire?
Somewhere near the ocean with mountains.  I don’t care where that has me ending up.

16. Favorite time of day?
I like dusk and night a lot.  There’s a lot of fun things going on then.

17. Where were you born?
West Virginia.  D:

18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
I don’t, at all.  They’re not entertaining to me.

19. Who do you think will not tag you back?
20. Person you expect to tag you back first?

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to these questions?

22. Bird watcher?
That has became quite a hobby here lately.  Our backyard is a bird haven.

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
Night, definitely.  I’m also decent in the morning if I have to be.

24. Do you have any pets?
2 dogs and 3 cats.

25. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share?
Ghost just announced another show near here.  That counts, right?

26. What did you want to be when you were little?
Wildlife Biologist.

27. What is your best childhood memory?
Playing in the creek at Granny Boo’s.

28. Are you a cat or dog person?

29. Are you married?
I guess that’s why I call that guy “hubs”.

30. Always wear your seat belt?
Usually, unless I’m feeling a little wild in the backseat

31. Been in a car accident?
Two.  Once, my wheel fell off and I gracefully drove the now unsteerable car into a guard rail.  The second was with hubs, we were T-boned when somebody ran a red light in Georgia.

32. Any pet peeves?
So many.  Too many.  I especially hate when people see themselves as something they aren’t and brag about things they’ve never done.  If I need to put on my shit-waders to be around you, I won’t.

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?

34. Favorite Flower?
I really like lilacs for smell and snap dragons for looks.

35. Favorite ice cream?
Butter pecan currently.  I also like marshmallow chocolate.
36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
None of them.  Seriously, most of them make me really ill after eating them.  Sometimes I can handle Arby’s or Taco Bell but that’s rare.

37. How many times did you fail your driver’s test?

38. From whom did you get your last email?
Actual person?  My uncle — he’s in Greece right now!

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Holy crap.  None of them.  I can’t think of anything I like that much.  I guess Amazon or Wayfair would have the most potential since you can find almost anything there…but still, damn.

40. Do anything spontaneous lately?
I went to see a show with naked guys in it.  That was pretty on a whim.

41. Like your job?
If I had one, I’m sure I’d hate it.

43. What was your favorite vacation?
I really like going to ProgPower USA every year.

44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
Just the hubs.

45. What are you listening to right now?
“Diggy Diggy Hole” by Windrose is what cycled through my random playlist right now

46. What is your favorite color?
Green, verging on teal.

47. How many tattoos do you have?

48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?

49. What time did you finish this quiz?
1:53 p.m.
50. Coffee Drinker?
Negative.  Can’t stand the stuff.  I’ll take a tea, thanks.


Time to relax, I hope

I’m finally home!

Well, technically I’ve been home for about two weeks now but it doesn’t feel like it.  I’m still tuckered out from my stay in Virginia with family and it’s been rather nonstop since getting home as well.

I did bring home LOTS of beautiful white peaches!


My hub’s college friends came to visit over the weekend.  It was fun over all.  We had some fires and went to Little Falls, NY to the cheese festival there.  How could you go wrong with cheese?  It’s all pretty unanimous that the goat cheeses were the best.  We came home with a few different ones.

I think my favorite of the day was the Oriskany from Cochran Farm.

…and then our air conditioner went out.  Of course it’s during this massive heat wave.  The guy has been out three times to try to fix it and I’m honestly getting a bit frustrated.


There’s a light at the end of all the exhaustion tunnel.

I FINALLY got a new car!  I no longer have to share my old car (hubs had completely taken it over since donating his three long years ago).  Freedom!!!


Not the most adventurous — we’re apparently building a fleet of white Prius.  The new one has AWD though and drives like a dream.  The old one, in the back, just crossed 250k miles and still runs like a champ.  We’re having a slight issue with the blower motor for the air (go figure) but that’s really the first issue she’s ever given us.  I hope we get many more years out of them both.

Craft-wise, I have half of the other sock finished but save it for travel.  Since being home I crocheted a loofa for hubs and that’s been about as much creativity as I can muster.  I’m seriously considering making a Lloyd and Lola llama quilt for my new car though!  I love having a car quilt. 🙂

…and to keep up with the survey thing because otherwise I’m reading a car manual cover to cover like a properly nerdy geek. ^_^;  I linked the songs for anybody brave enough.

1. What are you listening to right now, if anything?

Rise from the Ashes by Firewind

2. What’s the last song you listened to completely?

Monster in my Closet by Myrath

3. What is your favorite song?

Clarion Call by Falconer is my all time favorite.  The song I binge constantly changes quite often, though.  Currently it’s From Hell with Love by Beast in Black.  I could listen Yannis sing a menu and be happy about it.

4. Are there any songs that can or have made you cry?

Portals of Light by Falconer. I bawled like a baby when I saw them play an acoustic version live.  It was one of the songs played at my sister’s funeral soooo there’s that.

5. Do you have a shower playlist?

I don’t.  I don’t shower a lot for one; I prefer baths.  I do sometimes stream music while I’m in the tub but I almost always pick one of my Spotify generated Daily Mixes so I can have some of my favorite artists but mixed up.  It’s currently based on Dream Evil, Kamelot, and Freedom Call.

6. What about a bedtime playlist?

I do have a “<3” playlist that I often use when I’m trying to sleep but can’t quiet my brain.

7. Have any guilty pleasure bands or songs?

I absolutely adore flamboyant artists, especially if they’re drag.  I have no clue why but I think it’s just watching a group of absolutely gorgeous humans gather together to celebrate their uniqueness.  The more over the top and ridiculous, the better.  I think Cazwell is hilarious in all of the right ways.  RuPaul is just downright fabulous.   …and I could watch anything that Todrick Hall makes for daaays.  They’re not at all my typical genre but I adore them all.  I’m going to a drag show next weekend before a metal festival!  Color me excited!  One day, I hope to be half as gorgeous as one of them. Seriously though.  Nails, Hair, Hips, Heels by Todrick Hall is like crack to me lately.

8. What’s one song or band you used to like but now dislike?

When I was little I looooved Hansen.  Can’t say I’m a fan of any of their old or new stuff now but it was a real phase.  Posters and all.

9. What’s one song or band you used to dislike but now like?

Hrm.  That one is a lot harder.  I tend to be a quick judge on music and stick to those decisions.  Within Temptation, to an extent?  Her voice makes me wince in some songs but others aren’t bad.  I don’t usually listen to them on purpose but Hubs loves them so we did see them in concert and I really enjoyed them live.

10. Do you sing along when you listen to music you like?

Only if I’m in the car or nobody else is listening.  I can’t sing for anything, much less metal scream…but I’ll be damned if I’m going to not try the MEEEETAAAAAALLLL scream in Bloodbound’s In the Name of Metal.

Sock it to me

I finally finished a sock!

It’s for my mother, who has very narrow feet and slim legs so it looks a bit hilarious just laying there but it does fit her (or it did before I started the star toe). She’s asleep now so not putting it on her foot yet.


Now to get its friend cast on! I’ve only been working on these when I’m away from home. I need something that’s small enough to fit in my purse.

Pattern is Vanilla Latte Socks by Virginia Rose-Jeanes. So far, so easy.

…ans because I’m procrastinating:

What’s your show history?

– First show – Vince Gill at the WV State Fair with both of my grandmothers 😅

– Last show – Avantasia at The Palladium in Worcester, MA

– Next show – Heavy Montreal! Teo day festival at the end of July in Montreal, of course!

– Best show – Falconer, ProgPower USA 2015 in Atlanta, GA. It was their final show and let’s be honest, I didn’t think I’d ever get to see them perform. It was amazing!

– Worst show – There are a few up for the running. I’m going to go either with Anathema (PPUSA 15) or Tarja (PPISA 18). As somebody else put it, Anathema was like being waterboarded with sleep…and I did fall asleep. Tarja was pure diva and boring. For all the hype, I left early, as did most of the other people in attendance. It was pretty miserable.

– Who have you seen the most? I think that’s also a tie between Sonata Arctica and Battle Beast. I think I’ve seen them both five times. I had tickets for October when they’re touring together too but something bigger came up.

– Best show venue? Center Stage in Atlanta is my favorite. I also really liked The Filmore in Philadelphia. The Egg in Albany is also pretty nice.

– Worst show venue? The Webster in Hartford, CT. It was so bad I’ve refused to go to another show there. I also really didn’t like the PNC Pavillion in Charlotte, NC.

– Who have you not seen but want to? Powerwolf, Orden Ogan, Ayreon, Dream Evil, Turisas, and Eluveitie are the ones left on my bucket list. Seeing Powerwolf and Eluveitie this October and Orden Ogan in September!

– Bands you’ve seen that you want to unsee? – Alabama. They looked like they’d escaped from a nursing home, sweatpants and all. Also not my genre.

I’ll be away from home until the July 4th weekend. I’m worn out just thinking about it. It’s so tempting to run away. 😅

25 random facts about yourself that may surprise friends..

1. Do you make your bed? Usually

2. The first car that was officially yours? 97 Nissan Altima

3. Three grocery items you don’t run out of? Eggs, butter, milk. Those three are too important.

4. When did you start doing your own laundry? Little. I flooded the basement one or twice doing laundry an spitting in too much soap

5. If you could, would you go to High School again? Not for all the money in the world.

6. Can you parallel park in under three moves? Last time I tried but it has been a while

7. A job you had which people would be shocked to know? Babysitter. I don’t really love kids that much so it seems to be the surprising one.

8. Do you think aliens are real? No

9. Can you drive a stick shift? Learned on one but it has been years since I’ve had the chance to drive one.

10. Guilty TV pleasure? RuPaul’s Drag Race love that show

11. Would you rather be too hot or too cold? Cold. You can only take so much clothing off

12. If the world ends do you want to be one of the survivors? Ambivalent either way.

13. Sweet or Salty? Salty

14. Do you enjoy soaking in a nice bath? Yesssss

15. Do you consider yourself strong? Not really but I’m often told I am

16. Something people do, physically, that drives you crazy? Slurping spit when they talk

17. Something you do, physically, that you are sure drives people insane? Crack my joints

18. Do you have any birth marks? A little one on my toe

19. Favorite childhood game? I used to love hide and seek.

20. Do you talk to yourself? Not really

21. Do you like doing jig-saw puzzles? Aye

22. Would you go on a reality show? Don’t think I would but depends on the topic

23. Tea or coffee? Tea

24. First thing you remember wanting to be when you grew up? Veterinarian

25. No matter how much money you have or don’t have, what are you an absolute snob about? Crafting supplies and food ingredients. With either of those you can’t end up with an end product that surpasses what you put in to it.

I’m stressed. Holy crap am I stressed.

I’m visiting my mother. She was in the hospital for 10 days and they called me in to manage everything. It was a rollercoaster fuckfest. One doctor said she had lung cancer and was gonna die quick. One thought lymphoma. She was told her thyroid was too high, then too low. She was hypercalcemic and that caused kidney damage. She has stage 4 CKD now. The cancer guesses were wrong, she has sarcoidosis. I’m still here to make sure she gets the doctors she needs coordinated. It’s not healthy for me here so I’m having a hard time of it.

Distractions needed!

40 odd things about me.

1. Do you like bleu cheese? Not really. I can handle it on occasion but don’t go out of my way to eat it.

2. Coke or Pepsi? Coke

3. Do you own a gun? Technically, yes. My dad owned several and left them to me. I don’t have any of them at home though.

4. What flavor of Kool-Aid ? Fruit Punch

5. Hot Dogs? Oh yes. Delicious processed mystery meat

6. Favorite tv show? Star Trek

7 Believe in ghosts? Nope

8. What do you drink in the morning? Water, sometimes cranberry or pomegranate juice

9. Can you do a push-up? Only a girly one and only if I have to.

10. Favorite jewelry? Earrings

11. Favorite hobby? Knitting, currently. I like them all but knitting is what’s tickling my fancy right now

12. Do you have ADD? Probably. Mom always said I fit the testing but she never had it made official.

13. Do you wear glasses? Yes

14. Favorite cartoon character? Renji from Bleach if anime counts. If not, probably Pam from Archer.

15. Three things you did yesterday?
1) Checked the water system when the water here died. I can’t fix a pressure tank.
2) Made rolls
3) Got another few mats out of Mom’s dogs fur

16. Three drinks you drink? Coke, water, black tea

17. Current worries? Feeling stuck and wondering if that’ll ever change

18. Do you believe in magic? Nope

19. Favorite place to be? Outside in general. If it’s nice, I always prefer sitting on the deck

20. How did you ring in the New Year? Alone this year. My hubs was at work the whole day and night. Usually we go to GA to soend it with his friends.

21. Where would you like to vacation? Right now, Mallorca. Going in October.

22. Name three people who would most likely play along? Nobody. This is just a distraction.

24. Favorite color? Green

25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? Never have so don’t know

26. Can you whistle? Yes

27. What are you doing right now? Fighting some anxiety

28. Where would you rather be right now? Anywhere. 😅

29. Favorite food? Peaches or country ham or dill pickles. Don’t make me go without any of those.

30. Least favorite chore? Cat litter

32. What’s in your pockets? No pockets right now.

33. Last thing that made you laugh? Is it horrible that I can’t remember?

34. Favorite animal? Cats of all kinds.

35. What’s your most recent injury? I broke half of a toenail off again a few weeks ago

36. How many tv’s in your house? A whopping zero

37. Worst pain ever? Ovarian torsion resulting in organ death

38. Do you like to dance? Negative

39. Do you like camping? All depend son who it’s with

40. How do you eat your steak? Medium well with garlic and salt.

These are fun to do and fun to read.
Please copy and play (if you want. 🤷)

Sleep Hygiene can suck it

My neurologist fusses that I don’t get nearly enough sleep.

Every time, I get a lecture on sleep hygiene. Trust me, I know what I should be doing. It doesn’t help. I’ve tried since I was a teenager and nothing has ever helped. Sometimes tequila does and sometimes blogging to dump out everything in my mind does.

I don’t fancy becoming an alcoholic so here I am! 

Hubs started his new job last week. He’s already breaking his promise to not work late or bring work home. I knew it was going to be a problem and that’s why I fought the change so hard. His preference to be at work all the time is really taxing on our relationship and I have enough trust issues from his past behaviors already, so things haven’t been so hot for many months now. I don’t have many friends, much less ones I talk candidly with, but the three that do know the full situation all think I should leave him…but two of those are long term internet friends and the other is an ex, so it’s hard because none of them know the hubs and one has hated him for years so probably isn’t the best person to offer opinions on the topic. I don’t want to talk about our problems with our mutual friends though. It’s just not a happy situation right now. I’m hoping things will smooth out but who knows. I’m not an optimist so things never seem like they’ll work out.

There are two birds nesting at the house right now. The Northern Flicker is back in the owl box- I love watching her. She’s so fiesty! We also have a Robin that returned. She successfully nested here last year but a feral cat got into her nest not long after hatching. It was really sad. This year she moved her nest a bit higher and is right outside my bathroom window. Last year she was at the laundry room door the floor below the bathroom. It’s a real treat watching the babies grow. I especially love catching a feeding!

My mom was admitted to the hospital on June 6th – the 13th anniversary of my sister’s death…so not the best week. The doctors have found a good deal wrong with her but can’t figure out what’s causing the problems yet. She’s asked me to come “back home” after she’s transferred to a larger hospital several hours away. I’m her medical power of attorney and her husband apparently is being about as shitty as mine is currently. She has hypercalcemia and they’re trying to remove what calcium they can from her blood. Her kidneys are almost shot – the nephrologist graded them over stage 4. She has mediastinal lymphadenopathy, with some worryingly large nodes near her heart, which will require a biopsy at a larger facility. She also has spots on her lungs, type yet to be determined. The hospital is basically just running endless tests on her to prepare to move her to the learning hospital without providing any real answers.

…and my little dog is still sick. No clue why. She starts another round of medicine this week. This is why I’m not an optimist!

I also had my annual torture session at the dermatologist. My old patch of morphea is starting to break up after seven years…just in time for a new patch to show up on my freaking spine. I also broke out in an awesome rash over both arms and my torso while there. The doctor was impressed because she even commented how clear my skin was aside from the morphea. So much for that. I have an awesome case of very itchy folliculitis now and get to bathe twice a day with antibacterial soap until it goes away. If it doesn’t go away, I get oral and topical antibiotics added to it. Yay. I have the best luck.

So to distract me more from all the annoyingg stuff going on:

Pick one band and answer the questions using only song titles from that artist.

Falconer, they’re my favorite so why not!

1. Are you male or female? Tower of the Queen

2. Describe yourself: Field of Sorrow

3. How do you feel about yourself? In Ruins

4. Describe your ex: The Past Still Lives On

5. Describe your current relationship situation: Scoundrel and the Squire 

6. Describe your current location: Halls and Chambers 

7. Describe where you want to be: Substitutional World

8. Your best friend is: Man of the Hour

9. Your favorite color is: Enter the Glade 

10. You know that: Dawning of a Sombre Age

11. What’s the weather like: Pale Light of Silver Moon

12. If your life was a television show what would it be called? Carnival of Disgust 

13. What is life to you? Upon the Grave of Guilt

14. What is the best advice you have to give? No Tears for Strangers

15. What is your favorite way to travel? Hooves Over Northland 

16. What are you most afraid of? Perjury and Sanctity

17. How would you like to die? Portals of Light

18. Describe your soul’s current condition: Lament of a Minstrel


…those sounded way darker than the should’ve. I’m fine, for the most part. A bit stressed and tired, but I’ll get through it. I always do.

…now to hunt down sleep. I hope! 🙂

P. S. I had my birthday recently too! I have a new 30 pound weighted blanket and it’s glorious!!!

It’s also nice to have air conditioning again; I sleep so much better if it’s freezing cold. The gutter guys broke the coolant line last year and I just had to shell out a small fortune to get it fixed…fighting with the gutter company for a reimbursement but not holding my breath.

Cold + heavy blanket + purring cat on my pillow = I might sleep tonight

“I’m going to sleep late” she said, lying to herself.

Since I can’t sleep, might as well entertain myself here!

My little dog is still sick but our vet was on vacation so we took her to another out of worry. She was tested last month but showed positive for roundworms this time. Ewww! She’s been on treatment for two days and is seeming a bit better. We’ll see if that trend continues.

Within the past week, I’ve been to four shows of sorts. It has been utterly exhausting but a boatload of fun.

Book of Mormon was a riot. Everybody around me had been unfortunate enough to catch me singing one of the songs lately.

Judas Priest and Uriah Heep did an awesome job, as expected.

Avantasia was awesome. It’s hard not to be excited by that many legendary metalers in one show…especially ly excited to see Jørn Lande sing live! Sample of him from another musical project I love, Ayreon, with Annekke: Here.

Perhaps the most fun was Dracula’s Ball in Philly. It was a bit sad because it’s the last one they’re having, as the Troc is closing at the end of the month. I loved getting a chance to dress up (it was a costume party!) and dance to some industrial then settle down for a bit of goth’n’roll.

…and to help me burn a bit more time before forcing my poor hubs to wake up too, a survey thingy. The graduation hits home this year, as one of the kids we knew from foster care graduated yesterday. So proud of that kiddo!

It’s graduation season, let’s talk about your SENIOR year in High School. The longer ago it was, the more fun the answers will be.

Class ’03

1. Did you know your spouse? Nope, not yet. We’d have been friends in HS though.

2. What kind of car did you drive? A 92 Dodge Spirit, the family car that wouldn’t quit

3. Where did you work? On a farm and babysat their kids

4. Where did you live? With my parents and sister

5. Were you popular? Lord no. I was one of the kids in the group of nerdy misfits back before nerdy was the cool thing…we made our own Magic the Gathering-esque card games and spoke in our own made up languages. 

6. Were you in choir? The school didn’t hsve one until my senior year, so nope.

7. Ever get suspended from school? No

8. If you could go back, would you? I graduated a year early, partially to escape. I still have nightmares about going back. I think that’s a hell no

9. Still talk to the person that you went to prom with? I didn’t go to prom, I went to a concert out of state with my sister instead. Worth it.

10. Go to all the football games? Every single one. I was both a cheerleader and in marching band, I went to everything

11. What was your favorite class? I’m guessing study hall in the computer lab with just two of my friends doesn’t count? We were supposed to be doing our college English class then but it was a whole lot of gaming and Neopets. Soooo probably Chemistry or horse back riding (PE was required every year where I went but it was a hell fest, so I took riding lessons through the community college my last year for dual credit instead!)

12. Do you still have your yearbook? My mom has it, I think.

13. Did you follow the career path you chose? I went to college for it but nothing ever came of the degree

14. Do you have a class ring? I do but haven’t worn it in years

15. Did you letter? Yes. 5, yes FIVE, times. Take thaaaaat stereotypes!

16. Did you graduate with a 3.0 or higher? Of course

Drama ahead.

I thought posting might help me get back on track a bit.

I’m exhausted, mentally, physically, emotionally…all of it…and can’t seem to land on my feet right now.  Things have been a bit crazy and I’m not happy about it.

My husband decided to apply for a new job.  He didn’t discuss it with me until after he was interviewed and kept telling me he wasn’t going to take the job.  He took the job.  It’s a horrible idea. He’s taking a demotion, didn’t get the salary he wanted, and will now work a lot more hours a day, to the tune of 40 hours over two weeks…no overtime.  The company is restructuring and laid off almost half of their employees two years ago.  The laid off an additional 1,200 people between Thanksgiving and Christmas, and 300 the Thursday before Easter.  Hubs is easily bamboozled, says it’s his dream (that he never told anybody), and doesn’t see how leaving one of the most stable jobs in the country with clear and consistent career growth for a company that is circling the drain is a problem.  His parents have money.  They’ve promised they’ll bail him out.  Who cares that he’s married?  Needless to say, we’ve had some pretty nice screaming matches about him making this kind of decision without talking to me about it.  That’s not how relationships work.

My little dog is sick.  She has been for an entire month.  She fire hoses poo out in a gross stream and has to go out many, many times a day.  The vet can’t figure out what’s wrong with her and we’re now just blindly trying things.  Her bloodwork and stool samples all come back normal. He couldn’t find any obstructions.  She’s stopped spewing blood and losing weight, so that’s something.  He’s out of town this week, which is why I’m not in his office…again…for about the 8th time this month.  She vomited this morning but I think it’s because I was too sick (not sure wtf is going on with me either — I woke up at 2 a.m. with bad upper abdominal pain and nausea…reminds me a bit of my ulcer years ago but that was lower.  Ugh!) to get up and dose her medication, so hubs just gave it to her in a pill pocket and left without bothering to feed the dogs.  I feel gross on antibiotics too when I don’t eat.  I’m hoping that’s what it was.

I’m also on antibiotics…because I was bitten by a tick.  My personal nightmare.  Lyme disease is so common here that it’s scary.  My neighbor died from complications of it.  If I get so much as a sniffle in the next two months (or a headache, which is laughable since I have migraines), I’m supposed to go back to the doctor for more bloodwork and antibiotics.  I still don’t have a primary care because of husband’s shenanigans.  We’ve had three new insurance providers since my last doctor appointment.  Again, something I’m very unhappy about.

…and the wedding I was in went to hell in a hand basket.  Almost everybody involved was drunk by 11 a.m. and the wedding wasn’t until 4.  I was one of the sober people, despite my best efforts with lots of tequila, packing my own flask of whiskey, and sharing some homemade moonshine with the groom’s family, so I ended up babysitting a lot of drunks.  Whatever you can imagine went badly, did…and then some.  It was the type of wedding where the father of the groom shows up with moonshine and all of the groomsmen are packing pistols but the bride goes full diva bridezilla and wants to be a princess (and when that failed we found her drinking champagne in a rusted bathtub). People got so pissed off that they literally drove off, abandoning the rest of their family at the venue, which was an Amish farm in the middle of nowhere.  Interesting twist is that in at least one case, some married people enjoyed hooking up with other married people when their spouses left.

By the end of the night, cops were involved.  Physical fights broke out and protection orders were issued.  People should’ve gone to the E.R. but didn’t because it’s a wedding and a party and who ruins that?!  At one point,  I splinted a finger with duct tape because it’s all I had and tried taking them to the doctor but nope, they refused to go; they just went (two weeks later!!!) and the joint was so shattered it needs to be rebuilt, along with the tendons.  I’m guessing it’s from not going to the doctor to begin with — broken bones don’t like to heal if they’re constantly being moved and used to punch people.  But I’m not the one that’s so addicted to opiates that they could go two weeks with a finger grinding where their joint used to be, so what do I know?

As follow-up, the next day there was a threat of suicide in the order of a full will being sent out to everybody and them blaming their spouse for driving them to this.  The protection order turned into a restraining order.  Other people issued statements about being afraid for their lives.  People were kicked out of houses.  The day after, I received a mayday to please come pick somebody up from jail.  They were facing 24 months in jail but needed a ride home after they posted bail.  Thank goodness I was enroute even further south to GA for hub’s family and friends.  Joy.  I did find somebody else to pick them up and they took them to stay with some very unexpected people if you knew everybody involved. Eventually all of the charges were dropped…but people are still kicked out and strewn about. The bride’s mother is giving the marriage 6 months and the groom’s mother said he’ll learn his lesson the hard way — doesn’t bode well.  I’m also joining the bet but giving it 9 months because the bride/groom were already fighting the week after their honeymoon. I think the only reason they’ll stick together longer is because he’s still living on base until December, so that’s 8 months until he comes “home” with a month to realize what he got himself into. I think I’m the only one they’re all talking to.  I don’t know why.

I’m VERY glad I live 700 miles away.

After that, everything has just been a whirlwind of busy.  I’m an introvert and it takes a long time for me to recover from people…especially my people.  I think, after the wedding and the party last year, my husband is starting to understand why I largely refuse to go to family events.  I haven’t had time to recover to me yet and I’m not sure when that’s going to happen.  Yay, stress!

On the plus side:

My hair is blue now.  I like it.

I also have my Grandmother’s recipe for macaroni salad (mine still didn’t turn out as good as hers) and am about to have a bowl for lunch.  I also like that.

Grandmother says I’m a lot like her in temperament.  Biggest complement anybody could ever give me.  Now to become as friendly as she is.  Not sure I can pull that one off.  XD

Even though I don’t like being around people, I have lots of concerts and fun things to distract me.  I’m seeing Book of Mormon on Thursday.  Going to a costumed Dracula’s Ball in PA on Saturday to see a goth’n’roll band I like (The 69 Eyes).  Seeing Judas Priest on Sunday.  Avantasia is next Friday…then we’re thinking of doing an insane trip back to VA for the Memorial Day weekend to see the graduation of a kid we know.  He was in foster care when we met him and really took to my husband; the kid was adopted several years ago and has had a few issues, so we still try to encourage him in any way that we can.  He REALLY wants hubs to be there for his graduation.  We’re going to try to deliver, even though it means leaving the concert in MA and driving nonstop, all night, to maybe pull into the parking lot right as graduation starts.  It’s an 11 hour drive.  Graduation starts at 11.  The show isn’t supposed to end until Midnight.  Can we do this?  Are we crazy enough to try?

I talked to the bank and have secured approval for a car loan.  I was worried about how it would go over since hubs is job hopping but apparently my credit is too awesome to deny.  I’m thinking about getting an AWD Prius in June.  I’d looove to have a set of wheels to call my own again and the freedom that comes with it.

I also booked three (!!!) extended vacations for metal festivals this year.  ProgPower USA (Atlanta), Heavy Montreal (location should be obvious), and Full Metal Holiday (Mallorca).  There are 89 bands between them…and I’m throwing in another 6 bands by going back to Montreal both days before I fly out for Mallorca because I’m insane and very, very excited.  I think my only hobby now is concerts.  Crafting has taken a back-burner, even if I do still carry a sock to knit on in my purse.

I read a long time ago that metalheads are happier and live longer, which I took to say that I’d be in the nuthouse if I didn’t have my music.  With the way things have been going lately, I may end up there regardless.  :X



I pulled a disappearing act for a bit.  Whoops?

I finished the beaded scarf, though I’m not sure where my finished picture of it is.

I’m almost finished with a sock — my first sock!  I’m rapidly approaching the toes.

I’m also crocheting a bath poof for my husband.  He likes them and destroys them.  Maybe this one will last a bit longer.

…and I have a small order for some Dammit Dolls with some odd specifications, i.e. really long hair they can be swung around by.  Whatever floats your rage-filled hearts. ^_^;

Things are still chaotic: one wedding down, one to go.  I’ve been perpetually exhausted but whatever, it’ll pass.

Now for a survey that I obviously stole from a friend on Facebook while my hubs tries out the elliptical machine he HAD to have yet I HAD to assemble.  Hopefully it doesn’t break. :X



1. What was the last thing you put in your mouth? Water and migraine preventative medication

2. Do you sleep naked? Depends.  Not usually but sometimes it’s too durn hot and I feel like I’m being choked.

3. Worst physical pain you ever felt? Ovarian torsion resulting in organ death

4. Favorite place you have been? Downpatrick Head, Ireland.  I don’t know what it was about that turf but it was amazing.

5. How late did you stay up last night? 5:30 a.m.  I’m rocking the insomnia!

6. If you could move somewhere else where would it be? Scotland, loved it there

7. Which of your Facebook friends lives the nearest you? Does my husband count?  He’s a friend on Facebook.  If he doesn’t count, I think it’s Andrea — an online friend I met in a quilt chatroom.

8. When was the last time you cried? I…can’t remember. I think it was at Rich’s wedding? Not because I was happy or sad, but because I had two epic panic attacks at his reception and tears happen when those come a’knockin’.

9. Who took your profile pic? Me.  My Facebook profile photo is a selfie.  How lame.

10. Two of your favorite movies? The Nightmare Before Christmas and The Boondock Saints

11. What’s your favorite season? Spring

12. If you could have any career what would it be? Conservation/Wildlife Biologist

13. What was the last book you read? A Man Called Ove

14. If you could talk to ANYONE right now, who would it be? That’s really, really hard.  I’m going to go with somebody that has a name that starts with K.  Living male or deceased female if the rules of this question go that way.  Your choice.  I talk to one pretty much every day and dream of the other pretty much every night.  It’s a weird life but I think they’re the only two people who’ve ever gotten me.  I can’t talk to one anymore because of the dead thing and even though she knew every. single. button. I had to push, I’d take that all over again…and I feel like an idiot some days because I just want to spam the other ’cause even when (and often especially when) he’s being an ass, it somehow makes me feel better.  I just like having people around that I don’t have to explain things to; they’re rare and special.

15. Are you a good influence? Depends on the person, I suppose.

16. Does pineapple belong on pizza? Never.

17. You have the remote, what channel would you be on? BBC — I have a problem binging the programs they put on Netflix and PBS.

18. Three people who you think will do this? Nobody

19. Last concert you went to? Celtic Woman on March 30.

20. Favorite type of food? Ugh, that’s hard.  I waffle between the down-home Southern cooking I grew up with and just about any kind of roughly Americanized Asian food.


I’ve been twiddling my thumbs with making anything lately.  I’ve been busy and stressed.

Hubs finally started his “Secret Underground Laboratory Club” this weekend.  We had people over for 18 hours straight.  They didn’t leave until almost 2 a.m.  It was exhausting, especially since being around people tires me out anyway.

I usually don’t feel that useful around electrical projects but I ended up being the one putting together all of the mechanical stuff needed that day and showing them how to use the power tools.  Even my hubs didn’t know how to change out the bandsaw blade? It blew my mind a bit.

I’m not convinced two of them have ever soldered, either.  I find that strange since they’re electrical engineers buuuut I guess not everybody grew up with a DIY dad that was happy to have somebody tag along.  🙂


They’re prototyping an electronic boost DC/DC converter there.  They only lost an LED and we’re not letting them play with anything high powered yet, which is probably a good thing since they also shorted something but the equipment protected itself.

I think I need to come up with a safety waiver. ^_^;;

My schedule is going haywire shortly.  I’ll be leaving on March 1st and won’t have but 11 days at home until May.  I’m not looking forward to being gone that long!  I’m tired already and I haven’t even started packing.

…so now for a distracting survey thingy from a quilting friend, even though it has nothing to do with anything.

How old are you: 32
– Tattoos: None.  Not opposed to them, just don’t know what I’d get.  If I ever had a wicked scar, I know I’d get something stitching it up or crafting related to cover it.
– Ever hit a deer:  I mean, technically the one that did damage hit me.  It jumped off an embankment onto the hood of the car like I was a moving stepping stone.  I’ve also hit two in my mom’s car but no damage either time (which is hilarious since she did $500 worth of damage to her grill hitting a rabbit!).  One was sucker punched by the side mirror because it walked out of the ditch as I was driving past.  The other slid on ice in front of the car and went splay legged like Bambi and I ran over one of its legs.  All of the deer shook it off and stumbled away.
– Rode in an ambulance: Yups — I did EMT training and certification after college.
– Ice skated:  Nope but I’d love to try!
– Rode a motorcycle: Yes, but only with my daddy when I was little
-Stayed in hospital: More than I can count, for both myself and others
– Skipped school: A few times >_>;
– Last phone call:  My hubs
– Last text : Hubs again.  My phone number is only known by like six or seven people and only three of those text. The other losers are already in bed! :X
– Watched someone die:  Unfortunately
– Pepsi or Coke: Coke.  I’m from the south, almost everything is called Coke anyway.
– Favorite pie: Lemon meringue or my Granny Boo’s butterscotch with almond meringue
– Favorite Pizza: Pepperoni.  Sometimes I’ll do ham or meatball. I don’t like things too fancy.
-Favorite season: Anything but summer.  I don’t like heat!  I probably like spring the best though.
– Broken bone:  Pretty sure there’ve been a few little fractures here and there
– Received a ticket: Yes but the cop was a complete ass and profiling.  He saw a car of college aged kids (my roommate and boyfriend at the time with me) out late and couldn’t tell me why he pulled me over. He spent half an hour looking over my car before he ended up giving me a ticket for an expired tag that wasn’t actually expired (the state sent small stickers to put on the tag of your car with the year — mine was paid, I was away at college and the sticker was sent to my home address, not my dorm…so it was up to date, just not physically on the car)…and there’s no way he could’ve seen that at night in the rain from the highway median.  The ticket was waived when I called and complained.
– Favorite Color:  Green leaning towards teal.